When I decided to read this for Valentine’s day of 2016 I was torn thinking whether it would be a good or a bad idea. I even asked that question on Twitter so I can better prepare myself for what I had decided to read for that special day of love. Some wished me luck and told me to enjoy, but a lot were telling me to brace myself and to prepare tissues, lots of them, which got me a bit scared and excited at the same time.
Valentine’s day came, and I sat on my favorite couch bringing my usual ammos whenever I read. The first few pages were okay, although actually I felt a bit sluggish because I woke up early that day for church so it’s not the book’s fault. But I held on, and continued reading as it was gaining my interest quickly, and I fought tiredness and even drank coffee to wake up. I wouldn’t say I swept through this book because there were moments I had to pause reading and think for a while. Because this was one thing this book does to you, it makes you think. It made me ponder about how I live, how people live. Often times we take for granted the little things that seemed ordinary in our daily lives, and this book had a TON of straight to the point statements or what we call hugot in Filipino.
The gist of this book was Lou getting employed by the Traynor family as Will’s caregiver. Will got into an accident that cost him his arms and legs, and his life as a success-driven, and adventure-seeker person was over. While Will lived his life to the fullest before the accident, Lou was content on what her life in a small town could bring. They hated each other at the beginning, became friends, and eventually fell in love. But the problem is how can you love a person when the thing that person wants most is something that will break your heart?
Reading Me Before You was like a journey on a dark road with no specific destination. It’s filled with uncertainty, hope, and surprises. You go into it filled with hope that beyond all the uncertainties there will be a surprise waiting for you in the end, and that’s exactly what I got from reading this gem. It was heartrendingly beautiful, and it left me completely gutted.
This book was like hope in powdered form. No matter how hard you try to hold on to it, it will escape and blow away.
Thinking about it now I realized the ending has already been decided somewhere in the middle of the story, I was just being in denial about it, and I think that’s what made my heart broke more. It wasn’t disappointment, rather, it was facing the pain of reality.
Just live well. Just LIVE.